Just done with my O's and am currently working at SIX Accessories.
Am attached with my sweet honeybee Fahmy since October the 4th.
My honeybee, Fahmy.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Its the day that reflects on life so much so i realise i miss you guys at home
true enough..nobody knows how anybody feels.the reason why nobody should expect anybody to feel how they feel is because we only know what we are facing but try to look both side of the coin.It does not mean she or he looks happy but she ain't thinking or worrying about anything.Well...not all would want to share want they are currently facing.As a teenager myself i believe everything i encounter is an extra experience that no one could buy from.It's just how you look at things.I'm worried sick about exams and at the rate I'm going.God knows where i will be in the future.i seek guidance since day one of life.I'm not that fascinated in learning but will give the best.maybe not outdo others that are born genius but just the minimum.my aim is to lead a happy meaningful life which i really hope that my family will get to appreciate one another be it their weaknesses,after all we come from the same mum and dad.with god willing.amin
It hadn't been a happy ending day for me.Today mum and bro had a heart to heart talk and i didn't stay too long at home cause i was assign to buy the groceries.when i came back i saw bro in his room,he didn't went out.
dear abang,
Its not that I'm imbecile.I understand but i wish i could take the pain away from you.Its hard and it is too for me.i understand mum for being like she is today evening but only we could change the way it is now.We are her children that she love and care.I know that serving national service must be hard on you and also having to maintain the relationship with your girlfriend is tough.I understand as I'm able to overlook the whole matter but sometimes its abit too much of a pressure to handle.I had enough nags and listening to complaints from both sides and i just want the weekends to gather back all the happy memories i use to have and get from both of us.To see tears roll down your cheeks made my heart sunk real deep and hearing your sad voice made me cry too.I just want everything to end.I just want to spend quality time together with the whole family.i miss getting to know everybody as everyone will be doing their own thing at home.No communication at home is just like living with strangers at home.that's what i truly feel.I pray for things to get better each day.Even now it feels like the matter is hanging.Just smile and look away and that memory of the good time will wash the pain away.i love everyone in this family.
love,
iqah
11:30 PM love like there's no tomorrow
It hadn't been a happy ending day for me.Today mum and bro had a heart to heart talk and i didn't stay too long at home cause i was assign to buy the groceries.when i came back i saw bro in his room,he didn't went out.
dear abang,
Its not that I'm imbecile.I understand but i wish i could take the pain away from you.Its hard and it is too for me.i understand mum for being like she is today evening but only we could change the way it is now.We are her children that she love and care.I know that serving national service must be hard on you and also having to maintain the relationship with your girlfriend is tough.I understand as I'm able to overlook the whole matter but sometimes its abit too much of a pressure to handle.I had enough nags and listening to complaints from both sides and i just want the weekends to gather back all the happy memories i use to have and get from both of us.To see tears roll down your cheeks made my heart sunk real deep and hearing your sad voice made me cry too.I just want everything to end.I just want to spend quality time together with the whole family.i miss getting to know everybody as everyone will be doing their own thing at home.No communication at home is just like living with strangers at home.that's what i truly feel.I pray for things to get better each day.Even now it feels like the matter is hanging.Just smile and look away and that memory of the good time will wash the pain away.i love everyone in this family.
love,
iqah
11:30 PM love like there's no tomorrow
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
i feel stronger each day,we will survive through the bumpy rides.i promise if u'll perform ur best
I'm not that professional myself to make that mark in your life.I'm glad that i made u remember an angel in disguise.I thank god too for making me strong to face everything.For now that i hope that everything will go smoothly be it Ur exams and my exams.I'm left with 54 days subtract of the weekends and holidays...its just a quarter life we got here to the last lap.the final major lap.We will survive if you put in the effort.When you need professional help such that counselling and motivation,it all can be arranged but overall the main component of this challenging lap is you.The inner you on how strong it is to face up to this challenge.Only you know what you'll become.Don't let yourself be morphed into a tart!As you deserve better.You go girl.
Today i learn that we shouldn't have criticise god's creation.Even if she/he is bad as there's such word as imperfection.We shall learn from our mistakes and don't take for granted of the trust given or be prepare to face the results in doing so.Well...things might be complicated but only we or specifically i,have not only face difficulties but also encountered failure countless times but should we give up we'll not be able to know what we are capable of and that is to make a difference.how difficult matters are it doesn't matter as its gonna be easy like maths equations to simplify it and be the proud owner of achieving the set of flying colours remarks.
well my fellow mates,endure the pain.
how awful it is to swallow just smile and look away and hope that happy times will wash the pain and lift yourself up again.when there's ever any night that you feel like falling and hope that there's a loving hand to pick you up..don't bother cause u know that your closest heart to heart friend believes in you and that you can prove her that your stronger than life in which it could be better then ever!
hey girls,im meeting you guys tommorow.Excited!!Sungguh~
a cooking session together after so long huh?who would want to miss that?*laughs*
back onto the drawing block..baybayyy
11:47 PM love like there's no tomorrow
Today i learn that we shouldn't have criticise god's creation.Even if she/he is bad as there's such word as imperfection.We shall learn from our mistakes and don't take for granted of the trust given or be prepare to face the results in doing so.Well...things might be complicated but only we or specifically i,have not only face difficulties but also encountered failure countless times but should we give up we'll not be able to know what we are capable of and that is to make a difference.how difficult matters are it doesn't matter as its gonna be easy like maths equations to simplify it and be the proud owner of achieving the set of flying colours remarks.
well my fellow mates,endure the pain.
how awful it is to swallow just smile and look away and hope that happy times will wash the pain and lift yourself up again.when there's ever any night that you feel like falling and hope that there's a loving hand to pick you up..don't bother cause u know that your closest heart to heart friend believes in you and that you can prove her that your stronger than life in which it could be better then ever!
hey girls,im meeting you guys tommorow.Excited!!Sungguh~
a cooking session together after so long huh?who would want to miss that?*laughs*
back onto the drawing block..baybayyy
Labels: joey i love you, we will survive
11:47 PM love like there's no tomorrow
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Lesson 1
Be who you are and say what you feel,because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.
lesson 2
Life is not about finding yourself.Life is about creating yourself.
lesson 3
When you are content to be simply yourself and don't compare or compete,everybody will respect you.
lesson 4
Its not what happens to you,but how you react to it that matters.
lesson 5
If you are not getting much from life as you want to,then examine the state of your enthusiasm.
lastly lesson 6
ALL that we are is the result of what we have thought.What we think,we become.
Life has been great never felt better.
Whoever out there and you are reading this it is to remind you that from the slightest move you make it all becomes a different predicament.So you choose your way and I'll choose mine.Cause we are individuals and no one can change that.Sometimes friends tell you good thing for your own good but again you have brains so make full use of it.
Sometimes i go through pain myself but then again,'Truth is like an Art piece,Its how you look at it from different angles,and judge the nature of the Art piece by your inner intuition and feelings,Its how you are able to understand and interpret what it means,that's why truth hurts because its artistic'-Amywhite philophobia
well...So you out there if you think that this is the way it should be for the time being then you are wrong cause you are one selfish freak that only think that you'll make it to the end by your own and that to avoid meet ups will ace your subjects well so be it.It only reflects on how much you think of me and how you bother.What Else is there to say?sad eyes don't make you weak does it?Tears won't make you realise how much it hurts,does it?So why care?i wanna get back to the drawing board.Lets put it together again...before it really tears apart.Its clear isn't it?i need one last explanation before its clear but when will it be?the answer lies in you
you tell me...if this is it..why did u come back after the first time it ended?why?just for what you feel not caring about how i am now?its really sad?matured?look who's talking now?your choices are someone meant to be 12 not how old you are today.I don't get you..i really don't..its really disappointing.
11:45 PM love like there's no tomorrow
Be who you are and say what you feel,because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.
lesson 2
Life is not about finding yourself.Life is about creating yourself.
lesson 3
When you are content to be simply yourself and don't compare or compete,everybody will respect you.
lesson 4
Its not what happens to you,but how you react to it that matters.
lesson 5
If you are not getting much from life as you want to,then examine the state of your enthusiasm.
lastly lesson 6
ALL that we are is the result of what we have thought.What we think,we become.
Life has been great never felt better.
Whoever out there and you are reading this it is to remind you that from the slightest move you make it all becomes a different predicament.So you choose your way and I'll choose mine.Cause we are individuals and no one can change that.Sometimes friends tell you good thing for your own good but again you have brains so make full use of it.
Sometimes i go through pain myself but then again,'Truth is like an Art piece,Its how you look at it from different angles,and judge the nature of the Art piece by your inner intuition and feelings,Its how you are able to understand and interpret what it means,that's why truth hurts because its artistic'-Amywhite philophobia
well...So you out there if you think that this is the way it should be for the time being then you are wrong cause you are one selfish freak that only think that you'll make it to the end by your own and that to avoid meet ups will ace your subjects well so be it.It only reflects on how much you think of me and how you bother.What Else is there to say?sad eyes don't make you weak does it?Tears won't make you realise how much it hurts,does it?So why care?i wanna get back to the drawing board.Lets put it together again...before it really tears apart.Its clear isn't it?i need one last explanation before its clear but when will it be?the answer lies in you
you tell me...if this is it..why did u come back after the first time it ended?why?just for what you feel not caring about how i am now?its really sad?matured?look who's talking now?your choices are someone meant to be 12 not how old you are today.I don't get you..i really don't..its really disappointing.
11:45 PM love like there's no tomorrow
Saturday, August 16, 2008
BUCK UP i feel that i wanna write informal today,singlish
As days goes by,It feels like life is getting shorter and as i inhale for oxygen it aint got any?
i felt like choking ,i feel it pressing ,i felt it being squeeze,its so painful
how i wish it didn't get to this stage and now its killing me.Hey ni bukan drama mama ehhk!?
Anyway abit of refreshing which actually does not have any connection to what im gona post today.
just that it feels so hard to get where i wana get such that my aim is to Nafa
but how i wish i could?If the cost aren't that expensive. sigh~sedih...
So today i woke up early,showered and i smell sweeettt!!!Duh...sape mandi bau busuk kan?=__=
after shower i got the room clean and i did file-ing plus now im infront of the screen without a bloody specs which i havent been wearing for almost a year?what the hell?perhaps soon i'll be getting my own black nerdy specs..for just 28 dollars,including frame and lenses..it would be good if it was multi coated ?sunlight protection?and everything...
today im abit of a imaginary here and there..ive been doing soul searching for the past few days and that the mock exams really did a good job by giving me the loud Wake up call!!!
Shit man!the bloody papers was horrible.SUX
Im gonna prepare myself mentally and physically for the results and i got a freaking C6 for my mother tongue O level paper.Its ok..Im meant to score better for English which is obvious that im Not gonna be scoring good for whatever papers.Truth is i did nothing but read my storybook which i bought at expo the other day when there was a Borders book sale.
Shut up and sit down(sukhy's words)
Roll it down my girlfriend!
ahah
im going insane actually..not exactly..
because nothing is helping me out and neither is 'he' there to help me lessen the pain that usually was replace by the talks i have daily with him..Now he like to disappear and once awhile call me and sometimes it just ended just like that which is making say,WHAT THE FUCK!!!"
Doesnt mean i don't clarify what i feel towards every action u make doesn't mean i felt nothing?u are one of a kind beast that make me feel this way and hope to tell me that to cure it is to eat and grow fat right?fat hope la boy!?U know how it feels but u do nothing to cure it?Ur the antidote to it u kentut bacin?tak faham2 lagi ke per?stop asking me to stop feeling like this when i cannot uh sia..shit u!Whatever im done with the entry..
Truth is im feeling much better but sorry that this entry had to end this way cause i suddenly feel paranoia..shit u shit u..
ok entry ni merepek sikit..i cant be bothered withe language that i use today...fuck'd u...dont like just exit of the window assssss...
2:00 PM love like there's no tomorrow
As days goes by,It feels like life is getting shorter and as i inhale for oxygen it aint got any?
i felt like choking ,i feel it pressing ,i felt it being squeeze,its so painful
how i wish it didn't get to this stage and now its killing me.Hey ni bukan drama mama ehhk!?
Anyway abit of refreshing which actually does not have any connection to what im gona post today.
just that it feels so hard to get where i wana get such that my aim is to Nafa
but how i wish i could?If the cost aren't that expensive. sigh~sedih...
So today i woke up early,showered and i smell sweeettt!!!Duh...sape mandi bau busuk kan?=__=
after shower i got the room clean and i did file-ing plus now im infront of the screen without a bloody specs which i havent been wearing for almost a year?what the hell?perhaps soon i'll be getting my own black nerdy specs..for just 28 dollars,including frame and lenses..it would be good if it was multi coated ?sunlight protection?and everything...
today im abit of a imaginary here and there..ive been doing soul searching for the past few days and that the mock exams really did a good job by giving me the loud Wake up call!!!
Shit man!the bloody papers was horrible.SUX
Im gonna prepare myself mentally and physically for the results and i got a freaking C6 for my mother tongue O level paper.Its ok..Im meant to score better for English which is obvious that im Not gonna be scoring good for whatever papers.Truth is i did nothing but read my storybook which i bought at expo the other day when there was a Borders book sale.
Shut up and sit down(sukhy's words)
Roll it down my girlfriend!
ahah
im going insane actually..not exactly..
because nothing is helping me out and neither is 'he' there to help me lessen the pain that usually was replace by the talks i have daily with him..Now he like to disappear and once awhile call me and sometimes it just ended just like that which is making say,WHAT THE FUCK!!!"
Doesnt mean i don't clarify what i feel towards every action u make doesn't mean i felt nothing?u are one of a kind beast that make me feel this way and hope to tell me that to cure it is to eat and grow fat right?fat hope la boy!?U know how it feels but u do nothing to cure it?Ur the antidote to it u kentut bacin?tak faham2 lagi ke per?stop asking me to stop feeling like this when i cannot uh sia..shit u!Whatever im done with the entry..
Truth is im feeling much better but sorry that this entry had to end this way cause i suddenly feel paranoia..shit u shit u..
ok entry ni merepek sikit..i cant be bothered withe language that i use today...fuck'd u...dont like just exit of the window assssss...
2:00 PM love like there's no tomorrow
Sunday, August 10, 2008
seperti ada yang tak kena,kenape ehk?
I'm hooked on storybooks-non fiction ones.It felt that it drag my concentration into letting my self be engrossed in reading so much so that i hadn't really think about anything else for sometime.Its a good thing tho but i wish i didn't even have to think whats missing at this time.i need Ur calls cause i miss it so much.Sometimes i assume that u are not in a good mood referring Ur voice when u called me.Which actually led to a boring conversation between us.I wonder why,sigh
yesterday went to the Padang and watch the whole event on the big screen.this event was formally to celebrate Singapore's 43Th independence.
So i sit quietly and enjoy myself and yeah away from all the thoughts that have be winding in my mind.
Waited for the fireworks and it was amazing not that i haven't seen them my whole life but i just like every bit of it.Again i wish it had more to it such that if he was there with me.Only if things will be able to held a serious conversation to sort things out calmly.Whatever it is I'm still giving u the space u need to sort out UR life out such that u seem busy all while.its OK i understand,whatever it takes i give my best OK. *smile*
After fireworks i went to meet sastri knowing that she told me fendi was there with rest of the girls.He came back to visit his friends here in Singapore.imagine all the way down here from Melbourne.cool?
they wanted to go drinking and i didn't say much but just hang out with them i didn't bothered cause i know how was it like as I'm was a drinker myself last time.Good for me that i have quit those bad habits.I'm just left to quit my smoking habit which is really tough right now.Rest assure cause I'm sure I'm find my way out of this mess.Anyway,what he said struck my mind.
'pompuan isap rokok buat per?'
OK ok..enough...everything is he here him there and everything Else will be because of him.I hope this will stop.
I'm going jogging later in the afternoon and will stay to watch the sun sets with joey.
After the mock exams i wish i will have the time to go explore Singapore once again.i wanna go to the night safari,bird park,ice skating and much more.i"ll wait for the moment to come i hope it will come soon.OK people i guess it time to end this entry of mine.u guys take care and do not get yourself into deep shit.Like i am in now. time to shower and pamper myself with the body scrubs!
12:50 PM love like there's no tomorrow
yesterday went to the Padang and watch the whole event on the big screen.this event was formally to celebrate Singapore's 43Th independence.
So i sit quietly and enjoy myself and yeah away from all the thoughts that have be winding in my mind.
Waited for the fireworks and it was amazing not that i haven't seen them my whole life but i just like every bit of it.Again i wish it had more to it such that if he was there with me.Only if things will be able to held a serious conversation to sort things out calmly.Whatever it is I'm still giving u the space u need to sort out UR life out such that u seem busy all while.its OK i understand,whatever it takes i give my best OK. *smile*
After fireworks i went to meet sastri knowing that she told me fendi was there with rest of the girls.He came back to visit his friends here in Singapore.imagine all the way down here from Melbourne.cool?
they wanted to go drinking and i didn't say much but just hang out with them i didn't bothered cause i know how was it like as I'm was a drinker myself last time.Good for me that i have quit those bad habits.I'm just left to quit my smoking habit which is really tough right now.Rest assure cause I'm sure I'm find my way out of this mess.Anyway,what he said struck my mind.
'pompuan isap rokok buat per?'
OK ok..enough...everything is he here him there and everything Else will be because of him.I hope this will stop.
I'm going jogging later in the afternoon and will stay to watch the sun sets with joey.
After the mock exams i wish i will have the time to go explore Singapore once again.i wanna go to the night safari,bird park,ice skating and much more.i"ll wait for the moment to come i hope it will come soon.OK people i guess it time to end this entry of mine.u guys take care and do not get yourself into deep shit.Like i am in now. time to shower and pamper myself with the body scrubs!
12:50 PM love like there's no tomorrow
Friday, August 8, 2008
In this world that we are given life to live, somehow we just want to be on the top and never down.Even tho its clear that theres the ups and down of life but by experiencing both is what that makes us balanced.As one piece stronger to face the opponent.Ever ask yourself what is natural to react in certain ways?
At one point when i experience such breakdowns i wonder why I'm so weak and it felt like no one there to turn to.Even parents may not notice what I'm going through as i kept almost everything to myself.The tears i shed,all can hear but no one may see.So if u ever see me cry, u count yourself unlucky.Frankly i don't enjoy feeling like this.Its pulling me apart from being myself who looks so strong on her own but look at the fact now.Her life seems so alone as she seeks for someone to talk to daily just to forget everything even if its just a call each day.She'll definitely be happy.
After putting down the phone with him.Sometimes i realise i didn't get to say much.since now u know where to find out whats in this heart of mine.I'll just type it here to let it all out so u are aware.Sometimes i don't want to tell u what is in here cause I'm scared it may chase u away from me as everything i say may be of too much for u but again if i don't I'll just be in misery alone.After much thought,i felt that if i say too much i might just loose u.I sense so much that it makes me insecure.I kept thinking.I don't want to end it and I'm not willing too suffer another depression after the last i had years ago.I'll just go with whatever.
There's something u can do.
If only u try to assure me that you are not fooling around with me.I want us to grow up together.Am i a bit too ambitious in setting the goals i have for u and me?Only u can tell me.
sometimes u set me aside and i tried to understand.I don't blame u for anything i seriously don't its only me whom got herself into deep shit and that makes Ur life go like a merry-go-round.
12:39 PM love like there's no tomorrow
At one point when i experience such breakdowns i wonder why I'm so weak and it felt like no one there to turn to.Even parents may not notice what I'm going through as i kept almost everything to myself.The tears i shed,all can hear but no one may see.So if u ever see me cry, u count yourself unlucky.Frankly i don't enjoy feeling like this.Its pulling me apart from being myself who looks so strong on her own but look at the fact now.Her life seems so alone as she seeks for someone to talk to daily just to forget everything even if its just a call each day.She'll definitely be happy.
After putting down the phone with him.Sometimes i realise i didn't get to say much.since now u know where to find out whats in this heart of mine.I'll just type it here to let it all out so u are aware.Sometimes i don't want to tell u what is in here cause I'm scared it may chase u away from me as everything i say may be of too much for u but again if i don't I'll just be in misery alone.After much thought,i felt that if i say too much i might just loose u.I sense so much that it makes me insecure.I kept thinking.I don't want to end it and I'm not willing too suffer another depression after the last i had years ago.I'll just go with whatever.
There's something u can do.
If only u try to assure me that you are not fooling around with me.I want us to grow up together.Am i a bit too ambitious in setting the goals i have for u and me?Only u can tell me.
sometimes u set me aside and i tried to understand.I don't blame u for anything i seriously don't its only me whom got herself into deep shit and that makes Ur life go like a merry-go-round.
12:39 PM love like there's no tomorrow
Monday, August 4, 2008
OK truth is i can't.I need u to call me everyday before i go to sleep.I'm so use to it already.Don't take that away from me?please? today i didn't get a good sleep cause i was hoping u would call me. i woke up every hour or so to check for miss calls.
On Saturday i went to collect my Victoria secret handbag and after that went to watch fireworks with joey and friends.I was hoping that someday u'll be beside me to catch the view of the fireworks together.sigh
after fireworks ended,i went back.Separate from the rest and took a stroll down town,alone.Took bus 65 back and got down at bedok reservoir and walk home,alone.I miss every meet up.Cause i treasure u so much .Get that in Ur thick skull my boy.Everything flashed back,from the first time we met and to the last meeting we had and that was 3 weeks ago.I truly understand that u are busy but i am too and still I'm willing to sacrifice.All that u say was,'i malas'.Its unreasonable cause u live not too far from me.both of us live in Tampines u know???
I don't need Ur sorry but i just want u to understand and that's more then enough.please don't play kites with me. IMY SO MUCH!!
I know i called u in the afternoon.i just couldn't take it anymore.Its so hard.
I don't want this.its a bit too much too handle.Please call me please
i hope that one day,my wish will come true.
Maybe i may not say it to u but actually i want but it so hard to tell.i felt that my lips just went numb and it couldn't speak up whats in this heart of mine.sigh i feel weak so weak.Every time my phone rings i only hope for a private number or Ur other house number but turns out not.Haven't i wait enough?Give me all the support i need
I never ask anything from u before.Today i want to ask u to understand me,understand what i really want.Not more then that.
9:15 PM love like there's no tomorrow
On Saturday i went to collect my Victoria secret handbag and after that went to watch fireworks with joey and friends.I was hoping that someday u'll be beside me to catch the view of the fireworks together.sigh
after fireworks ended,i went back.Separate from the rest and took a stroll down town,alone.Took bus 65 back and got down at bedok reservoir and walk home,alone.I miss every meet up.Cause i treasure u so much .Get that in Ur thick skull my boy.Everything flashed back,from the first time we met and to the last meeting we had and that was 3 weeks ago.I truly understand that u are busy but i am too and still I'm willing to sacrifice.All that u say was,'i malas'.Its unreasonable cause u live not too far from me.both of us live in Tampines u know???
I don't need Ur sorry but i just want u to understand and that's more then enough.please don't play kites with me. IMY SO MUCH!!
I know i called u in the afternoon.i just couldn't take it anymore.Its so hard.
I don't want this.its a bit too much too handle.Please call me please
i hope that one day,my wish will come true.
Maybe i may not say it to u but actually i want but it so hard to tell.i felt that my lips just went numb and it couldn't speak up whats in this heart of mine.sigh i feel weak so weak.Every time my phone rings i only hope for a private number or Ur other house number but turns out not.Haven't i wait enough?Give me all the support i need
I never ask anything from u before.Today i want to ask u to understand me,understand what i really want.Not more then that.
9:15 PM love like there's no tomorrow
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Im waiting and will always wait.
I miss you
9:32 PM love like there's no tomorrow
Saturday, August 2, 2008
this is for u
Maybe we are trying real hard this time but it seems like its not getting anywhere,like I've said before its between u want it or not.So this time its my choice since u cant make up Ur mind.Its a promise that we won't look back because we have to live with it.Truly i don't blame u cause i know the ending of our story.Its not Ur fault either i just hope Ur life will be filled with lotsa love in time to come.I don't want u to make a mistake being any longer with my presence in Ur life.I don't want to stressed u up with all my demands.I know u don't like it and so do i because i know it's like a force-to-do thing for u.i guess i will abandoned my hp since there no one to care for like i had before.Everyone gone,busy with love life and I'm sick and tired of everything.All my friends pisses me of with the boyfriend stories. I just wanna move on and do well in my studies and forget everything.Which i know its the toughest and the roughest journey to get to that goal of mine.Maybe someday if this is true,it will come back.I promise myself this will be the last time i fall for anyone and that is u.Whats love?the only thing i know i was true to you and i thought this separation won't come by but it had to.I dont want u to become a hypocrite to urself.
Dont worry i won't cry anymore.The moment i felt like crying, i'll tell myself why should i?When i know u are not crying for me.I dont know if u do cause if u are u should have long made u r decision and tell it straight to my face.Its either a yes or a no Not i dont know.cause i dont know dont exist for me.You have to be specific.Dont leave things hanging.You have the right to do whatever u want and for that i wish u the best in whatever u do.I have faith in you.If u ever feel like falling just remember that iqah never stops believing in you.Terime kasih cinta untuk segalanya.kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu,maafkan aku.
loves
Iqah
i have this letter written in ur thumbdrive but sad u cant read it so this was what actually i wrote...
Hanya kepastian yang ku menunggu kerna bagiku diri ini telah kian lama menanti jawapan yang tak terluahkan lagi?tapi seberapa lama lagi masa,waktu yang ku mampu beri pada kamu?kini ku masih mempunyai kesabaran yang tidak terhenti,bagi kekasihnya yang sorang ini yang telah mengambil jangka waktu yang panjang sekali.perit tau hati ini,hmph!tapi yang paling penting sekali kau sedari ku tidak perna menjadi kau sebagai permainan atau pertaruhan semata-mata.ku jujur dan benar-benar ingin bersamamu.jikalau dirimu tidak sedia lagi,ku tetap menanti dan tidak akan memiliki hati dan perasaan untuk yang lain.janji.
this is the second one...
hey love, You may not love me today, tomorrow, or ever, but I will love you until it kills me, and, even then, you'll be in my heart.I love you if only you knew how much.Would we still be in love? if ever u leave me,will you ever come back? I thought we were going to make it till' the end...thats why i still want to get to know you after the first meeting and soon i realise that I wanted you forever.Now here we are,its a year or so that we are still contacting and im very comfortable with u just like u are with me.I dont want to loose this special thing between us may it last forever.but Sometimes i feel Fed up of trying and pretending to be happy.Just because i dont want to loose a very special person like you,i mean what i say suffian.I use to mind u playing your games but put yourself in my shoes.What would u feel if i would do the same?Or maybe take a different scene such that im watching a movie on net and u are on the phone with me?how would u feel if i were to say the same?But i guess your trying your best to please me.terime kasih kerana mencube yang terbaik =)mase balek hari yg kite gi mkn dekat beach road beh u main game i irritate u =) man U kental uh u!sorry uh u 1-4,jgn geram uh ok ;)I pon akan cube untuk faham u tapi please satu je?jangan ignore i urh klu busy pun kadang2 i kol mcm stgh maut sey, u masih tak angkat2 =(
i akan slalu ingat kat u.u!jangan delete surat cinta i kat u!TAW!!hahah! sayang kamu,selalu
yang tercinta,rafiqah
and this will be the last one.
Di sebalik kalbuku ini
Yang semakin layu
Terbenam rasa rindu
Terkunci suara hati
Tiada siapa yang tahu
Dimanakah kasih
Tak seperti dulu
Kata kau sayangkan ku
Benarkah itu
Kini ku bersara
Dengan langkah baru
Menyisi luka ini kekasih....
Sekeras aku
Terhiris kerana kamu
Ku tinggalkan cinta
Kisah kenangan kita
Hanya kau yang tahu
Walau kehadiranmu
Bagaikan cahaya
bukan caraku sayang
mengharap kau mengerti,
Permergianku ini tak
Ku relai Salam maaf
permissi ku undur diri....
Dont worry i won't cry anymore.The moment i felt like crying, i'll tell myself why should i?When i know u are not crying for me.I dont know if u do cause if u are u should have long made u r decision and tell it straight to my face.Its either a yes or a no Not i dont know.cause i dont know dont exist for me.You have to be specific.Dont leave things hanging.You have the right to do whatever u want and for that i wish u the best in whatever u do.I have faith in you.If u ever feel like falling just remember that iqah never stops believing in you.Terime kasih cinta untuk segalanya.kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu,maafkan aku.
loves
Iqah
i have this letter written in ur thumbdrive but sad u cant read it so this was what actually i wrote...
Hanya kepastian yang ku menunggu kerna bagiku diri ini telah kian lama menanti jawapan yang tak terluahkan lagi?tapi seberapa lama lagi masa,waktu yang ku mampu beri pada kamu?kini ku masih mempunyai kesabaran yang tidak terhenti,bagi kekasihnya yang sorang ini yang telah mengambil jangka waktu yang panjang sekali.perit tau hati ini,hmph!tapi yang paling penting sekali kau sedari ku tidak perna menjadi kau sebagai permainan atau pertaruhan semata-mata.ku jujur dan benar-benar ingin bersamamu.jikalau dirimu tidak sedia lagi,ku tetap menanti dan tidak akan memiliki hati dan perasaan untuk yang lain.janji.
this is the second one...
hey love, You may not love me today, tomorrow, or ever, but I will love you until it kills me, and, even then, you'll be in my heart.I love you if only you knew how much.Would we still be in love? if ever u leave me,will you ever come back? I thought we were going to make it till' the end...thats why i still want to get to know you after the first meeting and soon i realise that I wanted you forever.Now here we are,its a year or so that we are still contacting and im very comfortable with u just like u are with me.I dont want to loose this special thing between us may it last forever.but Sometimes i feel Fed up of trying and pretending to be happy.Just because i dont want to loose a very special person like you,i mean what i say suffian.I use to mind u playing your games but put yourself in my shoes.What would u feel if i would do the same?Or maybe take a different scene such that im watching a movie on net and u are on the phone with me?how would u feel if i were to say the same?But i guess your trying your best to please me.terime kasih kerana mencube yang terbaik =)mase balek hari yg kite gi mkn dekat beach road beh u main game i irritate u =) man U kental uh u!sorry uh u 1-4,jgn geram uh ok ;)I pon akan cube untuk faham u tapi please satu je?jangan ignore i urh klu busy pun kadang2 i kol mcm stgh maut sey, u masih tak angkat2 =(
i akan slalu ingat kat u.u!jangan delete surat cinta i kat u!TAW!!hahah! sayang kamu,selalu
yang tercinta,rafiqah
and this will be the last one.
Di sebalik kalbuku ini
Yang semakin layu
Terbenam rasa rindu
Terkunci suara hati
Tiada siapa yang tahu
Dimanakah kasih
Tak seperti dulu
Kata kau sayangkan ku
Benarkah itu
Kini ku bersara
Dengan langkah baru
Menyisi luka ini kekasih....
Sekeras aku
Terhiris kerana kamu
Ku tinggalkan cinta
Kisah kenangan kita
Hanya kau yang tahu
Walau kehadiranmu
Bagaikan cahaya
bukan caraku sayang
mengharap kau mengerti,
Permergianku ini tak
Ku relai Salam maaf
permissi ku undur diri....
7:18 AM love like there's no tomorrow