BUCK UP i feel that i wanna write informal today,singlish

As days goes by,It feels like life is getting shorter and as i inhale for oxygen it aint got any?

i felt like choking ,i feel it pressing ,i felt it being squeeze,its so painful
how i wish it didn't get to this stage and now its killing me.Hey ni bukan drama mama ehhk!?
Anyway abit of refreshing which actually does not have any connection to what im gona post today.

just that it feels so hard to get where i wana get such that my aim is to Nafa
but how i wish i could?If the cost aren't that expensive. sigh~sedih...
So today i woke up early,showered and i smell sweeettt!!!Duh...sape mandi bau busuk kan?=__=

after shower i got the room clean and i did file-ing plus now im infront of the screen without a bloody specs which i havent been wearing for almost a year?what the hell?perhaps soon i'll be getting my own black nerdy specs..for just 28 dollars,including frame and lenses..it would be good if it was multi coated ?sunlight protection?and everything...
today im abit of a imaginary here and there..ive been doing soul searching for the past few days and that the mock exams really did a good job by giving me the loud Wake up call!!!
Shit man!the bloody papers was horrible.SUX

Im gonna prepare myself mentally and physically for the results and i got a freaking C6 for my mother tongue O level paper.Its ok..Im meant to score better for English which is obvious that im Not gonna be scoring good for whatever papers.Truth is i did nothing but read my storybook which i bought at expo the other day when there was a Borders book sale.

Shut up and sit down(sukhy's words)
Roll it down my girlfriend!
ahah

im going insane actually..not exactly..
because nothing is helping me out and neither is 'he' there to help me lessen the pain that usually was replace by the talks i have daily with him..Now he like to disappear and once awhile call me and sometimes it just ended just like that which is making say,WHAT THE FUCK!!!"
Doesnt mean i don't clarify what i feel towards every action u make doesn't mean i felt nothing?u are one of a kind beast that make me feel this way and hope to tell me that to cure it is to eat and grow fat right?fat hope la boy!?U know how it feels but u do nothing to cure it?Ur the antidote to it u kentut bacin?tak faham2 lagi ke per?stop asking me to stop feeling like this when i cannot uh sia..shit u!Whatever im done with the entry..
Truth is im feeling much better but sorry that this entry had to end this way cause i suddenly feel paranoia..shit u shit u..
ok entry ni merepek sikit..i cant be bothered withe language that i use today...fuck'd u...dont like just exit of the window assssss...

2:00 PM love like there's no tomorrow