In this world that we are given life to live, somehow we just want to be on the top and never down.Even tho its clear that theres the ups and down of life but by experiencing both is what that makes us balanced.As one piece stronger to face the opponent.Ever ask yourself what is natural to react in certain ways?

At one point when i experience such breakdowns i wonder why I'm so weak and it felt like no one there to turn to.Even parents may not notice what I'm going through as i kept almost everything to myself.The tears i shed,all can hear but no one may see.So if u ever see me cry, u count yourself unlucky.Frankly i don't enjoy feeling like this.Its pulling me apart from being myself who looks so strong on her own but look at the fact now.Her life seems so alone as she seeks for someone to talk to daily just to forget everything even if its just a call each day.She'll definitely be happy.

After putting down the phone with him.Sometimes i realise i didn't get to say much.since now u know where to find out whats in this heart of mine.I'll just type it here to let it all out so u are aware.Sometimes i don't want to tell u what is in here cause I'm scared it may chase u away from me as everything i say may be of too much for u but again if i don't I'll just be in misery alone.After much thought,i felt that if i say too much i might just loose u.I sense so much that it makes me insecure.I kept thinking.I don't want to end it and I'm not willing too suffer another depression after the last i had years ago.I'll just go with whatever.

There's something u can do.
If only u try to assure me that you are not fooling around with me.I want us to grow up together.Am i a bit too ambitious in setting the goals i have for u and me?Only u can tell me.
sometimes u set me aside and i tried to understand.I don't blame u for anything i seriously don't its only me whom got herself into deep shit and that makes Ur life go like a merry-go-round.

12:39 PM love like there's no tomorrow